Maybe I'm just a lousy conversationalist.

My classmate once told me there's nothing wrong with friends who "come and go" cause all you need is to have fun at the moment. I disagree. All I ever wanted was a mutual BFF thing.

Translated, a sense of belonging. Right now I'm really just hopping around and having nothing in the end. Seems kinda fun at first but it isn't at all. I can only count the ones who mean much to me, but not the ones who need me or take me as a close friend. Because I realised a few I cherish really see me disappearing from their lives.



"you're mulling over such childish issues?" might be a remark I'd make a few years later, but not to me at the moment.

yeah... we all have our dreams.